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A blonde girl I made through pixelling...

Man...my friends want me to go to the Much Music Dance...God I don't want to. I hate dances!!! Now she wants me to go but I don't wanna go. I mean this is the same situation as that time I went to the circus...I wanted her to go but she doesn't like the circus. She said I made a deal with her. I did...but the deal came with that my other friend goes to the dance too but she won't go unless my other friend goes to this fundraiser thing but she can't go so like...this deal is like the loop with breaks but somehow it still goes on forever...And today when I was behind my two friends...its just so weird. Like you see it in a different angle, the angle you don't want to see it....It sucks.

you bet! i'm talking about scott. he is such a poser. i can't believe he thinks he has friends. i mean he'd think that people hate him for being mean. he just thinks he's a "new" student (which he's not anymore) and he thinks he's nice to his friends. well he's not...i mean, he does the stupidest things ever. he even stares at me but i ignore him. he always thinks people hate him because he's being nice and people are talking behind his back.well maybe we are, but only the truth! the things he do, the things he says is just terrible! i don't know when he'll get the point but my friend and i are going to confront to him. i hope my fears won't get the best of me.

today i finally got to experience an ancient chinese game, "wai qi". i guess you'd be familiar with the japanese term, "go". example from the anime hikaru no go. it's a pretty hard game and takes lots of stradegy (sp?). of course i sucked hardcore...man but it was fun. its a great way to relieve boredom.

last night the power went off because of a storm and it was so dark in the house!!! i was afraid the meat would go bad...yuck! but the traffic was doing good around my area until later there was honking. then those traffic directors came. i've always wanted to do what they do. its like a music conductor hahaha. then i got the idea of making this:

Eek band concert tonight at 7:00...I hope I do good!!! I don't want any mistakes...But I will try my best. I play the flute lol. I can't seem to get my high E with the high D together without slurring. If I don't slur the notes become too low...I'm just in second year...Dammit!!>_<;;

We're playing Friend Like Me and Prelude to a Festival in out Pops based concert! Ooh there will be Family Guy theme and Jurassic Park theme and Simsons and lots more!! >_<!!!

yap once again...i like a guy and he goes out with another girl...blah..

My story Beyond Wonderland is about my friends, my twin brother (made up character...I dont really have a twin brother) and me go on multiple journeys and quests. The title was off from the font, "Beyond Wonderland". It's a cool font. Download it from any font site.

The first story, Graveyard Angel, was based off of an urban legend I read from internet one day. My friend Lateish was typing her story in the library at lunch, so Violeta and I started to browse the internet. And I searched up scary stories. So one site had scary stories and urban legends. The legend was that is you sleep in a graveyard you would be found dead with no signs of getting beat up or poisones. As if it was a normal death. And you would be sleeping in the arms of one of the angel statues.

My story is when the characters are going to Infinaty, the island in the sky, on a summer break. They rent a hotel but right beside the hotel is a cemetary. They hear about the reports that there was deaths in the graveyard. The characters are being stalked and they go check out graveyard and the statue.

 

Story One: Graveyard Angel

Status: Not done yet!!! I'll type the story as soon as I'm done!

 

Here's a treat, emo dolls I made. Names->Lateisha->Leon(twin brother)->Me->Violeta

This is a poem about people who know they're in hole but don't care and think they can get friends to help them out. Well let me tell you something, we aren't gonna help you. You know why? Because you know you're in a hole but don't care. Like out teachers would say, "You have Apathy!". You bet, I mean I have apathy for things, too. I blame myself sometimes. But this has got to stop. I mean, your friends warned you but you still sit in the hole!

 

Pathetic people will live pathetic lives

Close your eyes and look with your heart

See through the deception and lies

See what's behind the mask the people wear

Drowning in an ocean of darkness

The only light that shines through are the voices with truth

Swim towards the voice and break through the ice

Knowing the truth of someone

Making their mask disapear

Making other people see what's behind the mask

The worst way to see someones true form

 

It doesn't rhyme but I hope you people will get the message.

 

Tak Matsumoto is my fave artist. Well out of the instrumentals that is. Here's one of his songs

Koi Uta

Not again. I sorta like someone...dammit. It's all starts like this. You start to "sort of" like this guy, then you start to like him and then get obbsessed with him. And yet again I fell for personality. Sometimes I wish I was shallow. You know, fall for a guy because of looks. But no, maturity made me this way. And now I like him 'cause of personality.

I don't know much about him...again. I've talked to him once in a while. He's nice. But when I say Hi, well he just says Hi back. I know, but he says it like he doesn't want to see me or something. He talks to all his friends all cool. I don't talk to him that much. But he's nice.

Yet again, it just seems to pop up with this love thing. I really don't want this to happen. But it keeps happening over and over again!!! Just like an endless ride on a farris wheel.

I hope I get off soon.

Ya! Today I went to see the volleyball match at University of Manitoba. Canada vs China! Man was it a really volleyabll game or what! But for fuck sakes, we had to leave before the game fuckin ended! I so wanted autographs! #7 of the China team was so cute! When we left the game score was china 2: canada 1. Wins for each piece/periods. My dad is gonna tape the whole game for me. China is the best! I was so mad I couldn't get the autograph! China China!

 

中国！中国！中国！ 加油！

Yay! I stopped liking my crush. Turns out all I wanted was for him to tell me if he likes me or not. I feel so much better. I didn't cry or anything. I felt like all of pain and all that gunk was all gone. I know, I know you're suppose to feel all sad if a guy says he doesn't like you. But that's me. The thing that was making me all depressed was because I was hanging onto nothing. If you know what I mean. Hahaha. But I can sort of talk to him face to face now. So I'm so ok.

I met this girl named Jennifer. She's a friend of Jason's. She's going to go to my school next. Year. Wow, it turns out she's so much like me. I mean like SO much! Thats really cool. She's really fun to talk to!

I realized I'm kind of the advice giver. I really love giving people advice and be able to have people talk to me all openly. But it's a big responsibility. You have to keep many secrets. Haha. It's nice. Then you get many friends who can talk to you. It's a good talent. Plus you get to open up to other people, too. That's a good thing when you can't really get any advice from yourself.

I got the highest marks in our recent science test. I really love science. I got an 82.5/100. That's really good. I felt so embarrassed that my teacher said my name out loud... I'm planning to re-do my test. I know. It's the best score out of my class and probably all grade 8s in regular program. But I think I can do better. The down side to this that iis, if I get lets say a 72%. That means that's my final mark. I have full confidence I will get better!

I can't wait. Monday is the volleyball game. Canada vs China. I can't wait. I'm routing for China of course! Yay!

I'm having a duet singing contest! I'll be singing with Taylor! I hope more people will come. Not to watch but to sing! I really like to hear talents!

loser loser loser!!! grr....! seriously...I mean I try to stop liking a person..but i'm so weird. I'm like going through withdrawl or something. Its not even funny! I mean...I've been so phycho today...I wanted to go to the freakin circuz but no one would go with me..so I gave up. My friend asked the guy I liked if he would go with me to the circus. course not! he's not as childish as me. my life is so screwed. I really want it to be normal again. I almost cried on the freakin bus! what a loser i am! loser doesnt even explain what i really am. all i do is act all ok in the morning and then just wanna break down after that. i dont want to be like this. this is the thing i dont want to be. i keep telling myself. I'm not going to be one of those girls...i'm not. but i'm turning to one of them...

 

help...

Yep. I'm giving up. On what? On likeing(sp?) Kristian. Yep easiersaid than done, no? I just made up my mind last night. I probaby won't make it...But I'll try my best. I mean...Things didn't really move and inch. So why bother. There's probably more guys out there I'll have a crush on sooner or later. I'm fine with later. This whole crush thing is making my old phycho self again. The "cray-boy-fanatic-grade-six-liz". Thank you very much, I'd like the grade seven me back. Where I didn't like any guys or atleast any guy for too long.  Haha. Ok all of you smokers or drinkers who wanna quit should be as confident as me~ C'mon cheer up!

I'll keep track of my records on this entry. I will make it!

May 05 6:40am: Ya right there's any progress to my achievments this early...Check back after school. And I'll tell you all about it.

 

List of Do-Nots

Don't Look at Him (that'll remind me...grrr he's so cool)

Don't Talk to Him (we mostly talk on MSN. So Don't!!!)

Don't Think About Him (stop stop stop!)

Tell Yourself He Likes Another Girl (well he does...I think. My friend told me...but who know!)

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Haha. Something better to talk about. Graduation. Man, am I freaked. Its grade eight grad and I hvae to get a dress. I'm just going to get a simple one. *sigh*. But my friends and I are planning to decorate out dresses. We're just going to test it on just old clothes then on out dresses. So we'll have one-of-a-kind dresses. I started planning already. It's going to me fun. I'm testing it on some old shirts (i can only do shirts and dress/skirts) then we're going to try it on my friend's old grad dress. It doesn't fit her cuz her chest...you know...grew. Haha. Can't wait for the outcomes. I'll post them up once they're finished!

Hahaha. So much things are like happening. Sometimes I think I should give people advices. Just one on one talks ya know? Like I'd love to hear your stories and help ya out. Mostly about things people are hurting on is love. Sorry to say, I'm a victim of that. I can give people advices but...I just suck when it comes to giving advices to myself.

I'm not afraid to say this in English (cuz I usually type it in).....Ok ya I'm afraid to type this in... I like this guy named Kristian in my class. And it's stupid because my friends offer to help me and stuff. Like to ask him out or like tips to get him to like me 1%...Hahaha. I always decline. Isn't that stupid. People offer me help, and it probably could get me closer to him (jee, that sounded corny). Ya...I'm so chicken when it comes to this. And I really wish he knew how I feel. But this stupid lovey-dovey thing will probably go away sooner or later...

Ok, I bough Bobby Pins today. Finally something to hold my stupid bangs back!!! Nya~ My friend said I looked cute and younger...Hahaha. Never use the word cute again...dun dun dun!!! Haha.

Tomorrow I get to go to the MTS Center for this Take Pride Winnipeg thing. Kinda interesting...I want to go to the volleyball game!!! Yes China vs Canada!!! Go China! Go China! Go China!