Yesterday was my awards ceremony and I won 2 awards. The scholars award and book award. My teacher said I will be only 1 award and I knew it was a scholars award. The scholars award was near the end and the book award was the last award. So after I got my award I just sat down and relaxed. All of a sudden my name was called for book award. I jumped up and was confused...I thought I was only getting 1 award. I got a certificate and a $35.00 certificate for McNally Robinson bookstore.

That day, before the ceremony I bought a manga called 【Ｐｅａｃｅ　Ｍａｋｅｒ鐵】 Volume 1. It was amazing!! The artwork was outstanding. I'm planning to buy Volume 2&3 and another book. The bookstore doesn't have 4 yet...hehehe. The Peace Maker manga costs $11.99 plus only one tax (7% tax). So I can get three $11.99 manga for $38.49 (already included tax)!! I just have to pay in a few dollars!! Yay!

I don't really have many comics because they are expensive. Comics range from $9.99(usually the "VIZ" company) to about $12-$15.99 plus tax. The most expensive comic I have ever bought was $19.99 plus tax...!!! The story wasn't even good. I only like the artwork so I returned it...

I'll sometimes buy comics and stop buying them because I have already watched the anime or they don't have the rest of the volumes on the shelf...This is the list of comics I have:

一騎当千　volumes 1-6, 8.

Cardcaptors last volume...

Ceres Celestial Legend  volumes 6

Deathnote volumes 1

Eerie Queerie 1-4

Legal Drug volumes 1-3

Loveless volumes 1

Peace Maker鐵　volumes 1 (soon to have 2&3)

Princess Ai volumes 1

Yubisaki Milktea volumes 1

 

Not alot, neh? But I love these comics, they have beautiful artworks. Ya, I only by comics for good artwork and amazing story lines!!! Maybe soon I will make a manga of my own...If I'm not too lazy. But I also have to buy those expensive pens... $3.00 each...!!! (‘へ’♯)<--smiley with a vein!!! Hahaha. (‘_-◊)

 

 

The boat party was so fun! The food wasn't all that red carpet but the music was good. We had a hiphop radio dj our dance! Everyone was dressed up. Well the guys kind of looked normal. The girls were really good looking. Most of the girls bought their clothes at Mariposa. Some people's dresses were WAY too expensive! I can't see why you would buy a dress that expensive you're not going to wear another day. Makes no sense. Mine, I can wear everyday. I mean on a regular day.

Everybody was all surprised. "Liz? The boy girl is wearing a dress?!" People I didn't even know said, "Hey Liz, you look really good!" Somehow I feel they are laughing at me. I don't care. What was really cool was I saw Jiwon in her hanbok! It was so pretty!! I was so happy the see a really hanbok! She looked really pretty in it!

My feet started to hurt alot because my boots were 3 inches high!! So I started to wale barefoot most of the time. I kept phoning my mom and dad, my friends got really mad. It was my first time on a boat. Looking at the waves made me kinda sick. But it was really funny. My friends and I sat out side of the boat looking at the view. We would also wave at the other people on boats or land.

What was really cool is that my friends and I watched our first sunset. It was amazing! But the sun setted really fast. Atleast setted away from out sight. It was a beautiful orange glow. It felt very special!

More to write after!

Uaaahhhh! Today is my grad party!!! I'm very happy. I hope I did not fail anything in school. I planned not to hand in my book. I made up a low mark that I would be possible be getting and I didn't get a failing mark. I should be good for now. I can't wait! I'm not in something fancy, but that's ok. I hope someone will ask me to dance...Ok...Not really. Grrr...

I don't want to be that desperate girl, thought. Asking like everyone out...She's really pathetic. I mean, she even tried to ask out a guy after he broke up with someone. I mean really, shallow much. And she even lied she like her for a few months. She really reminded me of other friend. Well she's isn't really my friend anymore. They both like to say, "remember the time when I [insert something here]?" They'll use whatever they did against you. When I buy drinks or food she expects me to share with her, and when she buy food or drinks she says no. I mean. Stupid much?

Anyways, lately I've been finding cute smileys/icons! Which I like, they are cute and anime like, and they MOVE! Ok, I'm just really happy! I found them on a chinese site. They call these MSN表情.

<---I love eggplant. <---Poop!

<---Uuuuwaaaaa! <---dundundun!

<---weird.. <---..ahem

<---cute!

 

I can't believe the grad party is tomorrow! I'm starting to freak out because the skirt, it isn't short...but I don't like my legs because they pale...Oh well. I'll just learn to deal. My friend said the boat was big, almost like a cruise boat. I'm afraid to get sea sick...even though it's not on the sea...or any big waters...I can't wait. But I keep having this nervous feeling, like something bad is going to happen. I don't know why, I hope nothing ruins it..

Woohoo!! I finally got a Windows Media Player on my MSN Space!! The song that's playing is A Little Pain-OLIVIA. The ending song of anime NANA! I NANA, I've read the manga, saw the live-action movie and now I'm watching the anime! It's very good. I like the opening, Rose-Tsuchiya Anna. She's a good singer. But I perfer OLIVIA better. Her voice it good. The funny thing is, both is a mix. OLIVIA is half american or something and Anna is half Russian! Wow!! It so cool. I wish I was a mix, too...But sadly, no! Wait..Yes I am. Half viet, half chinese and half canadian!!

Anyway, I'm planning to get more stuff for my MSN space! Wee! And I'm gonna change my space's layout.

 

I went to chinese art school like usual. There was a new girl I didn't see before in my session. She was on the bus and stopped where I stopped. When we were waiting for the class to start she talked to me. She's so cute hahaha. She asked if I would hang out with her, so we sat together on the stairs. We chatted for a few minutes. She was from Beijing and she loves anime! She's very good at drawing anime. She drew a Chii from Chobits. It was so good. I wanted to ask for e-mail...but I'm too shy...I hope I see her again! I want to really ask for a phone number or e-mail!

After I left chinese art school, its started to hail like crazy! People were in the bus shacks waiting for the bus to arrive. The hail came down hard (literally) and it made very loud noise that was unbearable. It was like a tapping sound being amplified 10x!!! I coudn't even listen to my music. It hailed for a couple of minutes and the road was almost flooding!!!

I'm still glad I got my skirt! The hail stopped when I took my bus home. Good thing the bus 29 came in no time, too! My pants were really wet when I got home!!

 

 

Hahaha. I finally finished my music list!!! I might do one for chinese music. But I don't have alot I know, I mean they don't really show alot of chinese singers on tv so ya...T_T.. There are alot of singers that sing good...but I don't know what they're names are..I could find them...but I'm too lazy. I'm not very fond of cantonese even though I understand, I like mandarin music better. Which I don't understand alot. Well at least when they're singing. When someone talks in Mandarin I can understand alittle. Can anyone reccomend any good songs?

Now that I look at my list..wow...all those song are alittle cheesy. Hehe. But I like those songs. I also have to loose ones that'll put them on a different list. Oh well.

I have to go to school today...No..I wont. I'm not skipping school, you don't have to go if you want. I just have a missing assignment I have to hand in. But I will do it on Monday!

Oh man...This morning I was recording..but I guess people are right, you should warm up before you sing. Especially is you wanna sing loudly on the mic but cant. So you have to push your voice...It hurts!! I heard it wrecks your vocalcords, too! Noooooo......!!! I like to sing..It's just that I can't do it with karaoke music or if I hear myself if there's an amp. I get so freaked out even if there's no one there. I just don't really like hearing myself that much. I like it when I'm alone in a quiet room singing because I can push it really loud and my throat doesn't hurt...so ya.

I have no school today. I'm so happy. No more exams. I can't wait until grad, but I have a bad feeling something might happen. Oh well.

Oh here's a quick poem I just thought out:

 

little you may be

but you have an electrifying voice

a mind that is as big as the ocean

and a heart as big as the universe

take a deep breathe in then out again

with one shrill you blast the world with emotional words

words with sorrow

words of joy

words cast a removal spell on taint

the words of heart that expel evil

the words that make purity rise from the core

the words that will lead us

 

I kind of got some idea's while watch the anime Loveless. It is so good. You guys have to watch and see for yourself!

The singing site is called Soundclick. I managed to grab enough strength to sign-up and sing. If you check on the side of my blog, you'll see a link thats leads to my page. I so far only have song there. Its actually very bad..I get freaked out when I'm on mic so I started sounding weird. But I seriously can sing better without music but the mic. Who wants to hear someone singing without background music...I don't.

If you guys wanna say how bad I am please do. I don't mind actually. Or if you want to request a song I shoud sing, go ahead. I'd love a challenge. Please give me these details (* means I need to know this):

*Song Title:

*Artist:

Lyrics: If you have the link to the lyrics, thats great!

Song: If you have the song, mind sending it to me on msn?

Language: Sorry...I only do English, Japanese or Mandarin...

 

Happy Happy!

 

 

My last exam is today!!! Yay! I can't wait to finish it. I hope I don't fail my school year. I want to pass with honors and not get put into grade 9...I might have to go to summer school. As if school isn't annoying enough...I still have to finish my math booklet...waaahhhh! I just wanna pass. I might, seeing that it couts as average. I should have enought to pass. But I'm still very nervous. I am trying to to do that next year for sure! I hope I wont get kicked out of class. I heard if you're late too many time you might get kicked out of the whole semester!!! No!

I can't wait for the grad! I am wearing something not very fancy. The theme this year is "Red Carpet" which means for super stars and famous people. Mine isn't very fancy. I am not the type to dress really fancy. Something loose and comfortable is good for me!

Currently I am listening to an online anime radio. I remember once there was an online asia radio! I listened to it so many times but then I stopped!! I enjoyed the chinese music so much. But I would like to learn how to sing chinese. Only mandarin if there is PinYin..cantonese is hard because I cant read that many chinese. I can only read just enough.

I love to sing especially japanese since it is easy to read the romanji. I like to sing from artist like Nakashima Mika (中島美嘉), Ito Yuna (伊藤由奈), and Utada Hikaru (宇多田ヒカル). They are my favorite female singers!

If you like singing and you have a mic, please send me your voice! Not literally but I like to listen to people sing. Don't be shy! I'll send you my voice, too!

 

like an actor on a show

you dont know his or hers true face

the person you look up to

you thought you knew all about him but you were wrong

he might have changed

but you dont really know

time might of stopped in your world but something happend to his

something went terribly wrong and you cant stop it

sitting there crying all confused

wanting to throw things around with rage

dont worry

things will be fine

just ignore and forget

because a person like him does not deserve your care

Haha. There this guy..person...girl...Ok I don't know the gender but...seems like a boy. And he's been commenting on my blog. I just want to tell 狼牙。月 thank you!

I feel so warn out...I was crying yesterday at like 12:00 am. I was so confused, all these things started to race throught my head and my chest felt like it was being crushed. Yesterday on msn I was talking to my...friend. I don't think I want to be his friend anymore. I felt like going over to his house and punching him. What he told me yesterday knocked me collapsing to the floor. For a moment I felt so lost and deep confusion. Man the thing he said hit my like 2 tons of bricks.

I guess he didn't know, but I was cry behind the computer the whole time. I stopped for awhile because I was watching tv. Something to distract me with. But when I got to bed, all the feelings just shot back and started to cry. And the first solution I thought was...cutting myself. I didn't do it, though. I really wanted to try. Just to see how it really felt, to see if it helps ease the pain.

The sad thing is, I didn't cry myself to sleep and that's what I really wanted was to sleep. Everytime I almost went to sleep, the confusion came back and I'd sit up and cry. And I wouldn't cry out loud because it was late and everyone was asleep. That even made it worst. I really wanted to scream and trash my room to out all the anger, hatred, confusion and sadness. I just felt like using all my energy and just lie there for awhile on the floor, to get everything to sink in. I played some music on my MP3 player and I end up falling asleep.

Here is the other part of me which isn't to sad about all this. He said something to me, he said that I didn't care about him, but I do. And the day he told the terrible thing, he told me not to care. I said I was rude to him. I said because I didn't give him pity, so he thinks I'm rude.

It's his fault for getting himself to this whole situation and he expects people to pity him? Blaming it on a person who ratted you out and not saying what wrong you have done. You are pathetic! Don't get to use to having people pitying you and telling, "It's ok.." and trying to comfort you. Because in society, people aren't going to care! People have to find money for houses, family, food. You think they're really gonna stop and ask if you're ok? Maybe some. If you can't learn to say to yourself, "Oh maybe I did do something wrong." or "I shouldn't of done that." Then just go to hell!

I've learn this from experience. I vandalised the girls washroom when I was in grade..4 or 5. And my excuse was that someone was making me pissed. Of course they didn't care. Good thing I was a top student, they let me off with a warning.

Really, doing something you know you were going to get in trouble with and then blaming it on someone who ratted you out. Really?! I thank that person who ratted you but I also didnt wanted him to rat you out. You now why? I want you do something so bad and get caught bright red-handed. Maybe then you'll know how to take responsibility for your actions.

But maybe you still won't understand. You might blame it on another person who ratter you out. So pathetic. Saying to me that I was being rude? What I was telling you is to suck it up and stop blaming besides blaming yourself. You have no right to blame other people for your wrong doing and you also don't deserve pity. People give pity to him or other people who don't deserve pity is also worthless. You're not helping him, you're hurting him. You're telling him it's alright to do what they did wrong. So for not realising you could be ruining them. Pathetic.

I was thinking. This has got to be the worst school year ever. I like a guy...and he likes another girl and in between was this huge mix up! I mean...then I like another guy, and right when I was going to tell him I like him...A girl already asked her out. Ok never mind that, my two best friends were going to beat eachother up. Everything so changed. I mean I did for sure and my good friends also. Some of them changed for the worst...Man I even started to cry..like twice!!! I hate that... Man this so sucks. I wish they really know how I really felt.

wow! Today was my first provincial exam. The math on the exam was pretty hard. Only some of them, the ones I couldnt do I just went back to it after. I managed to finish everything, but I'm not sure if I got them right or anything. At lunch, me and my friends were talking about the exam lol. We had alot to talk about. We even made some funny jokes about a fat women...I know...I know..thats not very nice. But this is what my friend said. "Jee you know..that women needs to get some exercise and I dont mean walking to the mall to get something to eat." OMG that cracked me up so much!

wow. todays 666!!! everyones talking about it hahaha. i'm kinda freaked out. alittle tho. but its fun to have childish beliefs.

math provincial exams are on thurday...man this sucks!

yes yes. another life lesson... here it goes. i hope this gets into your skulls and if you're into what i say, well shut up and don't comment. just ignore. i might be 14 year old, but i think i know much and this is my point of view. usually the quiet ones or the ones that keep things to themselves see alot.

 

ok for all you people who like to sit there and blame the world or other people around them for making their lives miserable, shut the hell and do something. this happens to me all the time. i'll sit there and cry and think everyones trash! i'd get mad at everything and wonder why. you have yourself to blame. you think you might be nice you think you might do things. maybe you dont. just think about it for awhile. maybe there are things you should change (and i dont mean physical looks) or maybe excel in something. you can plan and set goals and make your dreams a reality but take it too far. like the phrase, "dont count your chickens before they hatch." it's true. dont plan things like having a first kiss on the beach or something. plan something stable.

now back to the part about sitting there and blaming people. dont. smack yourself if you think that. it is your fault you dont get the things you wanted. its your fault you werent brave enough to speak up and its also you're fault that you let little things anger you. its not that the world isnt giving you oppurtunities or chances. its you who isnt showing that you want a chance or oppurtunity.

stand up and take charge of your life. you want it? better work until your arms and legs turn jello because in life there is always a price.

Awsome, I get to go see a movie with the regular grade 8. I'm going to see Egypt and the Human Body!! Its in 3D, too. I'll be sick to my stomach!! Hahahaha...Ya I know they're cheap videos...But hey...! Atleast I get the day off.

Phew...We had a Walk-a-Thon like yesterday. I was outside in the blazing heat and still didnt get a tan...Man, that's not fair. I wish I was tanned-skinned. It was pretty fun after lunch. We got a 2 1/2 hour lunch. Me and my friends didnt do much, but that ok. Then we had activities. They were a bit cheesy, thought.

I found a site where I could play 围棋. Pronounced: Wei Qi. I guess you would be more familiar with the Japanese term, Go. It's really fun but I keep getting my pieces taken away!!! I suck...Haha. But I'll practice and get the whole game set. I played it on the internet...Yay!

I even found chinese fonts! Wow! I only got the ancient chinese fonts. It looks so cool!! I'm trying to find some fun chinese font too. But some of them are corrupted so I cant put them on the computer...Oh well. I'll show them to you...guys.

That's me last name, Lu.